Pointed & Ready

It’s an emptiness.
But is it really?
There’s an ache that exists, and you can be surrounded by amazing organisms and still feel it.

That ache.

That terrible, awful, remembering ache.

It feel like you’re drowning in the midst of an oxygen bubble.
Which doesn’t make sense; is the water imaginary? Is it all in my head?
No, couldn’t be.

Because even if I’m not drowning, no one’s popped the bubble just to see.

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– Back to the writing wheel, yet again. ~ M

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Great Divide: Off My Hiatus

Things hurt; that is forever a given. That seems to be the piece of knowledge no one can escape.

Scars act as a reminder of those givens; a piece, of a fragment, of a morsel of the pain. There was a instance in his life, where no scars were bare on him. He was blank as a white piece of paper; no rough edges, no lines scribbled. Yet a day approached him in his adolescence where he suffered the worst scar he’ll ever come to experience. He was on the phone with her, listening to her silence, hoping what was playing in his head wouldn’t sing out of her mouth; he guessed wrong. The words didn’t hit him like bricks or knives; rather they were an earthquake that shattered a crevice into his being. He hit the red button, ending not only a conversation but a time in his life. And the only reminder he will have is the divide, caused by an earthquake, manipulated by a woman.

(I’m back ladies and gents.. time to write some emotions)

30 Song Challenge – Or 50?

I was nominated by the Lovely Leah and the Terrific Tabitha for this intriguing tag. (Apologize for anyone I missed)

I will say here and now that I grew up listening to all kinds of music, and the songs I list here are not all that I listen too. I wish I could put thousands of songs in these categories but I’ll limit myself to one or two. Any music lover out there knows my dilemma..

1. Your favorite song:
I feel like it’s constantly changing for me as I discover new music; but for the past few months it has been Polaroid by Imagine Dragons. Also Technicolor Beat by Oh Wonder is one that I can never get enough of.

2. Least favorite song:
Currently, I can’t stand that Downtown song by Macklemore.. Sounds like instruments clanging together off-beat.

3. A song that makes you happy:
Budapest by George Ezra; I’ve also liked that one for a very long time. And for whatever reason Like Sin by Chase Coy makes me happy too.

4. A song that makes you sad:
There are many songs that make me feel that way, but often I don’t listen to them because I’d rather not be sad. To list a few, IDFC by Blackbear, and Dark Star & Moondust by Jaymes Young, and Broken Angel by Boyce Avenue.

5. A song that reminds you of someone.
1, 2, 3, 4 by Plain White T’s, and Ghost by Chelsea Lankes.

5. A song that reminds you of somewhere.
Long Way Down by Robert DeLong, Overload by Life of Dillon, Electricity by FMLYBND, and songs of similar genres remind me of the airport and flying. I travel often, and I’m always listening to music through the whole thing.

7. A song that reminds you of an event:
I feel like I have to pick Girls Thoughts by Circ; no lyrics to this one, but I always find myself daydreaming away with the music.

8. A song that you know all the words to:
Every song on my playlist or Spotify, I know the words too. I listen to music often and I’ve always had a knack for memorizing lyrics. Though I’ve always been able to remember lyrics to all of Eminem’s music since I was younger.

9. A song that you can dance to:
There’s so many that could belong in this category as I love to dance too.. Usually music like Ride by Ciara or  Dark Horse by Katy Perry. Anything with a good background beat.

10. A song that makes you fall asleep: Nightcall by London Grammar, and Sleep Baby Sleep by Broods.

11. A song from your favorite band: So I have three favorite bands; Imagine Dragons and Milky Chance. Polaroid and or Roots are my favorite from Imagine Dragons. Stoned in Paradise or Flashed Junk Mind are my favorites from Milky Chance. ALSO, Oh Wonder, and I legitimately like all of their songs.

12. A song from a band you hate:
I can’t really say there’s a band I hate, but one I never jumped onto the bandwagon for was 5SOS.. Don’t like any of their songs in particular.

13. A song that is a guilty pleasure:
Isn’t every song a guilty pleasure? -This will be a post for another time- I think I could name a few. Honey, Make Me Healthy by Flannel Graph, & Control by Halsey.

14. A song that no one would expect you to love:
I hate to say my music taste is predictable, but people who know me can generally tell what music I’ll listen to. However I always surprise people when I start singing the whole song of Lose Myself by Eminem; which I do love.

15. A song that describes you:
So I asked my mother this one time, and she picked Bubbly by Colbie Caillet -Which is a song I like and know the words too- however I usually pick something sad to describe myself, like Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez or Mirrors by Justin Timberlake. However, if I really had to pick a song, Count On Me by Bruno Mars would be my top choice.

16. A song that you used to love but now hate:
Yikes.. Pretty much any generic song that got overplayed over the years. The first thing that popped into my head was Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen.

17. A song that you hear often on the radio:
God; can I just answer “everything”? Honestly however, I don’t listen to the radio all that much, I find music through other sources.

18. A song that you wish you heard on the radio:
God I wish they’d play Oh Wonder more; they’re very underrated in my opinion and I know it would be a cool thing for them to get mega radio play -Even if it makes them overplayed songs.

19. A song from your favorite album: Have to say my favorite album -which is rare for me because I usually just like particular songs- is Halsey’s Badlands, and my favorite song would be either Gasoline or Control.

20. A song that you listen to when you’re angry:
I never listen to music when I’m angry; usually because anger has always been a fleeting emotion for me, and I’d never have enough time to still play music when I’m angry. Though I will say Revolution sung by Jim Sturgess is a good one.

21. A song that you listen to when you’re happy:
I have to bring back Budapest by George Ezra for this one; also The Way I Am by Ingrid Nelson. But I’m always happy listening to music.

22. A song that you listen to when you’re sad:
Either Carousel by Melanie Martinez, Wasting my Young Year by London Grammar, and While My Guitar Gently Weeps sung by Martin Luther McCoy.

23. A song that you want to play at your wedding:
.Either Colour Me In Gold by JP Cooper, or A Thousand Year by Christina Perri (I know, cliche right?)

24. A song that you want to play at your funeral: Five Foot Three by Flannel Graph; something not to happy, but something on a subtle sad note. Also I feel like this song is a good representation of me.
25. A song that makes you laugh: First thing that popped in my head was The A**hole Song by Denis Leary; probably doesn’t count as a song but who cares. Not many songs make me laugh, I feel deeper emotions than that when it comes to music.
26. A song that you can play on an instrument: I used to be able to play Day Tripper by The Beatles on acoustic guitar.
27. A song that you wish you could play:
Lost Boy by Ruth B; such a beautiful song and it requires piano, which is another favorite instrument of mine.

28. A song in a foreign language that you like:
Waka Waka by Shakira or Bailando by Enrique Iglesias; I can actually sing the Bailando one; thank you two years of Spanish.

29. A song from your childhood:
Clint Eastwood by Gorillaz, Aint No Rest For The Wicked by Cage The Elephant, and any Eminem song. Generally my parents played music they grew up listening to -or at least songs that were older than me- and I still listen to them; but the older I get the harder it is to find the songs I listened to as a kid unless I hear them.

30. Your favorite song at this time last year: Dear lord how am I supposed to remember that? My favorite song changes so often, and I don’t even remember what I listened to then because I still listen to it now. Though I do remember I played Amazing by Kanye West A LOT last year.

 

This was the most interesting and fun tag I’ve done yet; and it took me forever as well! Took me 40 minutes to decide which songs I really wanted to represent my taste. I’ll have it be said that even these songs don’t cover the range of things I like in any manner. I really love all music -except country- and I always will.

All my lovely people I’d usually tag have already done this, so I really encourage anyone to do this tag; you may even surprise yourself with what songs pop into your head.

Sunshine Award – Time For Some Rays

I was nominated by the lovely  

1: I have actually been home-schooled all my life. As a child my mom would order books and she would essentially be my teacher, and then during late middle school years and now in high school I do a virtual school.

2: I’ve always had a very sincere nature to help people, however I’m consistently driven insane by people complaining about the same problem over and over again in their life when they are the person causing their own pain. I find that it makes it harder to help them, and I then become frustrated because I’m unable to help.

3: In my years of life currently, I have moved to three different states and seven different houses.

4: I have the weirdest form of being anxious in an airport.. For whatever reason if I go through an airport alone I am perfectly fine -if anything I find it exhilarating because I feel like an adult- however if I’m with someone I get very anxious; I put it in the fact that I think when someone is with me, subconsciously I know I can rely on them whereas when I’m by myself I only have me to count on.

5: On the airport note, I have been on an airplane about twenty times in my life so plane travel is harmless to me. Though I have a fear of flying over water, and I absolutely despise when the plane turns and it feels like it’s tipped all the way on its side.

6: I have been stung by a jellyfish twice in my life -I feel like I’ve mentioned this before in other awards- and ironically enough they are my favorite sea creature. I find them very ethereal and calming for sometimes being a very harmful creature.

7: I feel that since birth I’ve always had a natural affinity for animals, though I find the older I get the more fascinated and understanding I become of people. As a child I just don’t think I understood people as much as I do now, so I always preferred animals to anyone. Now I feel like the affinity for them is equal now.

8: I was born an only child, but since my parents remarried I now have six siblings; three sisters, and three brothers, which works out in an odd way considering I always wanted siblings.

9: I always tried to tap into writing at a younger age; I remember being 9 years old and using my mothers very old desktop to write a book about bullying. I never got further than five pages whenever I tried to write a book that young, and now I feel like I never have enough time or space to write all the things in my head. It was quite profound once I was able to tap into another way of expression.

10: As much as I write and do my artwork, it genuinely bothers me that I’m without musical talents. Which is such a shame considering I love many kinds of music with all my heart -something I inherited through my parents- and I find it such a true form of expressing yourself. It’s also sad considering I’ve owned a keyboard and guitar for many years, and can play neither.

11: It’s been such a trip to see my book taste overflow into something quite different from what it used to be. I used to really enjoy the classic teenage fiction novels written by James Patterson or Cassandra Clare; now I can only read the actual classics like Ayn Rand or Fitzgerald because I find the writing of this decade very trivial unless it’s a factual book. The writing of the 18th-19th century just has so much more meaning than the fanatic things that come out nowadays.

12: So, time for a little funny irony if you know anything about astrology. I was born a Pisces -double Pisces, moon and sun to be exact- and my mother is a Cancer, and my dad a Gemini. If you don’t know much about astrology, Cancer and Pisces are like one in the same, two peas in a pod; however Pisces and Gemini are very different. So I was raised by opposites who showed me two very different sides of people, and I’m very thankful for how they raised me in our dynamic trio.

13: Another astrology irony.. You’d think as a Pisces I’d love the water right? Mmm, yeah no, missed the affinity for that one. I can remember being deathly afraid of the pool even with my mom to catch me and while wearing floats. Even at the beach I am only ever in the sand. I also don’t enjoy boats, and absolutely will never get onto a cruise ship. Though I do enjoy the pool now, I still am not a fan of open ocean in any regard.

14: Little family fact, we’re literal hobbits. The tallest females in my family genetically are 5’3, and one of them is my mother. I’m 5’1 and considered tall compared to other females in my family; I believe the shortest may be 4’5.

 

I know another rule is to nominate fourteen people, but everyone I follow has either been tagged, or too big a blog to notice the nomination. Though I encourage everyone to spice up their blog with facts about themselves; I’m sure your readers are curious.